alright so i think im going insane.

yesterday morning, on the way to work, i suddenly had this smile in my head. this beautifully shy, flirtatious smile. a young woman with short red hair, dressed in a nice button down blouse, listening to music and glancing shyly at me. quickly. diverting her gaze any time i tried to greet it. and in between each glance a smile. the most genuinely happy smile i have ever seen. until at last i get both. a peak. a smile.

and in my mind this shy woman is perfect. she is a kind of beautiful i've never seen before. not like i would have described even 3 days ago. her nose. ears. hair. all different. but all perfect.

this image fades in and out like a dream. but when its clear. when we're in the middle of diverted glances. its clear. like i've seen her before. like i've lived this.

and since yesterday i cant leave her alone. i replay this scene constantly. back to back to back. with no pauses.

this is starting to get a little ridiculous. 2 full days of her. and i see no sign of it stopping. actually, i dont want it to stop. she is absolutely perfect. and i enjoy every second of her presence. i smile just like her now. constantly. just happy that she is too.

i need to find out who this shy woman is.